Finding my Way...

"Somewhere I Belong"
~Linkin Park

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know myself until I do this on my own

And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong
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I've feel like I've finally found my way onto the path I have been searching for for so long... finally found somewhere I belong. But the path is not open yet... there is a rather large stone blocking it. And its a stone I can not move myself... I have to wait until someone else drags it off to the side of the road.

Don't you hate it when I blog in metaphors?

Translated, I've applied for a new job... not just a new job really, a new career. And it will take me to a new city... new surroundings... a new home. It's a huge change, and its exhilarating, and exciting, and a little scary. I feel energized; yet at the same time restless and anxious... wanting to know one way or another if I will find myself walking this path to a very new... very exciting life.

I feel like everything I have done, every path I have taken has led me here. I feel like this is exactly where I belong... and that is something I haven't felt in a very long time. And its a great feeling.. an empowering feeling. Now I just have to to get through the waiting without going out of my mind.